Reed is a very special little guy. He is our miracle baby. (Actually, Dylan is a miracle baby too...we just didn't know it at the time he was born). Reed was an unexpected little miracle that came into our lives during our adoption process and after 3 consecutive miscarriages.
When I found out I was pregnant with him, I didn't even want to know my due date. I was sure that I would lose the pregnancy, just like the previous three. It wasn't until I saw his little heart still beating away during a 12 week ultrasound, that I started to think I might really have another baby. Even then, we proceeded with caution through the entire pregnancy.
The day he was born was one of the happiest days of my life. I held in my arms the very thing that my heart had been longing for most. I was not only feeling the happiness of having a new baby, but relief. Relief because I could put an extremely hard and painful chapter of my life behind me. His birth healed my heart in so many ways. It will never heal completely...there will always be 3 special little souls waiting for me up in heaven. But the pain and darkness left me.
I had the opportunity to do all the things I had been dreaming about doing again. Rocking him to sleep, nursing him, cuddling with him. I also got to try out a lot of the things I wish I would have done when Dylan was a baby, like baby wearing and cloth diapering.
And the very best part was that this time around, I didn't take a single moment for granted. I haven't pushed him to reach each milestone months ahead of time. I'm letting him be a baby. :)
I've also been very blessed to be at home with him. I have had a very flexible job that allowed me to stay at home with him during the day while Brandon was working. Now that Aubree is home, I've quit my job completely and am able to be at home even more. It is such a blessing for us all!
Today is bittersweet. I'm so proud of Reed. He is the sweetest little boy who fills our home with so much joy. It's hard to believe he's already a year old, and sad because he's our last baby. As happy as I am to leave behind the stress and heart ache of trying to conceive, I will miss having a little baby around. Reed is really starting to look and act like a big boy.
Happy birthday, Reed! We love you so much, and you have filled our lives with more joy than you'll ever know! <3
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